Re-entry!!!!!!!!

ANY TIME I RETURN HOME FROM AFRICA, I AM TOTALLY WRECKED. AND THIS TIME HAS BEEN NO DIFFERENT. WHEN I VISITED ZAMBIA I WAS COMPLETELY WRECKED FOR THE CAUSE OF THE ORPHAN. WHEN I VISITED ETHIOPIA THE POVERTY AND ORPHANS WRECKED ME. BUT SINCE RETURNING FROM GHANA, I AM WRECKED ON SO MANY LEVELS. PHYSICALLY, I AM EXHAUSTED, BUT EVEN MORE SO THAN THE PHYSICAL EXHAUSTION, I AM EMOTIONALLY A MESS. THE PEOPLE OF GHANA WERE AMAZING, OUR NEW CHILDREN EQUALLY AMAZING. I HATED LEAVING THEM. I FELL IN LOVE WITH THEM INSTANTLY. I FELL IN LOVE WITH THE PEOPLE OF GHANA ALMOST AS INSTANTLY. I'M NOT SURE I HAVE EVER BEEN TO A MORE PEACEFUL PLACE FULL OF CHRISTIANS. CHRISTIANS WHO ARENT AFRAID TO PROCLAIM THE GOOD NEWS TO ANYONE AND EVERYONE. I LAYED IN MY BED EVERY MORNING LISTENING TO CHILDREN WORSHIP THE LORD FOR AN HOUR IN SCHOOL, PRIOR TO STARTING THEIR STUDIES. I LISTENED TO THE GHANAIAN PEOPLE SING AND PRAISE GOD FOR HOURS SUNDAY EVENING. I LISTENED TO THE GHANAIAN PEOPLE TALK ABOUT HOW IMPORTANT PEACE WAS TO THEM. CHURCH SUNDAY MORNING IS 3 1/2 HOURS LONG AND EQUALLY LONG SUNDAY EVENING. AND EVERYONE IN THIS COUNTRY AND I MEAN EVERYONE GOES TO CHURCH. ALL OF THE WORKERS AT THE GUEST HOUSE ARE EXCUSED FOR CHURCH ON SUNDAYS. THEN I RETURN HOME AND HEAR OF THE MOST HORRIFIC NEWS I COULD EVER IMAGINE WITH THE SCHOOL SHOOTING IN CONNETICUT. AND I LIKE EVERYONE ELSE SCREAMS WHY? WHY LORD? AND I HEAR EVERYONE TALKING ABOUT WHAT WE NEED HERE TO PREVENT THIS FROM HAPPENING EVER AGAIN. MORE GUN CONTROL, LESS GUN CONTROL, MORE SECURITY AT SCHOOLS........AND I JUST WANT TO SCREAM......WAKE UP AMERICA, WE NEED JESUS CHRIST, WAY MORE OF JESUS. AND THAT IS ALL WE NEED. WE NEED TO GO TO GHANA AND VISIT FOR A WEEK AND FEEL THE PEACE THAT ONLY JESUS CHRIST CAN GIVE. INSTEAD OF SENDING MISSIONARIES OUT, WE NEED TO BRING THEM IN. I AM SO BROKEN FOR THE FAMILIES OF THESE CHILDREN, I AM SO BROKEN FOR THE TORTURED SOULS HERE AMONGST US. IM NOT SURE WHERE TO GO FROM HERE. I FEEL LIKE MY WHOLE LIFE IS A JOKE AFTER RETURNING HOME. I AM BROKEN. I AM BROKEN. WE NEED AFRICA MORE THAN AFRICA NEEDS US!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!