About Me (A Fun Post)

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I never changed a diaper before my first child was born

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I always knew I wanted to adopt but wasn't so sure about giving birth

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I have three dogs, two cats, and a bird

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I question my faith daily

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I lean on my Savior every minute of the day\

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My husband has tried to kill me in his sleep

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Most days my animals are better behaved than my kids

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My secret wish is to live in Africa as a long term missionary

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I want to flash my girls one time at Mardi Gras

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I once dreamed of becoming a FBI Agent

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I once dreamed of becoming a marine biologist

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I would commit bigemy if Denzel Washington proposed

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I absolutely loved every minute of my childhood

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I married my best friend and soul mate

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I could live in the bush without any problems

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I worry a lot

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I would adopt 10 children if I had the money

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I would adopt 15 children if I had the money

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I dream of being a homeschooling/stay at home mama

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I love my mommy more than anything in the world

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I also lov my daddy lot's

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I once fell from the top of a ladder in the middle of a dance routine at a high school football game

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I recently let my child swim at a pool party for 10 minutes before I realized we were at the wrong party on the wrong day

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I had nephrotic syndrome in highschool and spent a month in the hospital

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I wake up 5 to 6 times a night to pee

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When pregnant, I wake up 10-15 times a night to pee

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I love my chocolate lab more than any of my other animals

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I really want to be a sophisticated wine drinker, but I can't stand the taste of it

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I once loudly exclaimed in the middle of a sports store "There are plenty of other Dick's around here!" as my eldest son begged for the very last catcher's mit in Dicks Sporting Goods.

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My youngest colored our border collie with a blue sharpie while I fell asleep on the couch

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I secretly dream of torturing the border collie on a regular basis

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I dream of living on the beach

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I am scared shitless to fly

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I am rarely ever down

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I am always in a good mood

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I think I piss people off because I am always happy, like a big Lab running at you!

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The nurses almost didn't let me bring the oldest home because it took me over an hour to dress him

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I love pregnancy

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I love my job

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I would love to work for an adoption agency one day

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I really like to say "told ya so" every time I tell the little one not to do something and he does and ends up somewhat injured

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My relationship with the Lord gets stronger each and every day

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I think about dying a lot the older I get

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I am afraid of death

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I love the smell of my husbands skin at the end of the day, especially around his temple area

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I love to watch my boys smile

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Can't wait to see my baby girl smile

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Sometimes I feel closer to my adoption friends than my friends here

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I can no longer rent movies in the US or Africa because of late fees

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Thought I would be put in jail for not returning movies in Zambia on time

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Thought my husband was going to kill me when someone called from Africa about movies being turned in

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I didn't go back to a store after I realized they didn't charge me for an item once

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I am a hippie at heart

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I am a nerd

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I can belch and fart right along with my boys

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I want to be a congress woman one day

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I want to change the world

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I truly believe that one person can make a difference





Give up? They are all true. That was fun. Now how about you?

God at work

I just love to sit back and look at all the ways God is and continues to show His presence in my life. I reflect on a regular basis. I didn't use to reflect this often and realized I was missing out on an opportunity to piece things together and truly see where He is working throughout my life.

Another one of these opportunities came about recently. My cousin was visiting recently. She is a social worker down in the southern part of WV. I was telling her we had recently decided on an agency with which we would proceed with for foster care in our county. As I picked up the application, I thought to myself "I need to get busy and fill this out today." The Holy Spirit spoke and said "wait, just wait". I was like, "OK, God, whatever, I'll wait, just let me know." The next day we received an e-mail from our adoption agency saying they had a little girl for us that was 2.5 month's old. They knew we had decided not to continue with international adoption two month's ago. The lady said she really wanted to place a little one with my husband and I and that she was paper ready and could be filed for court immediately. Of course we said YES!!!!!

So now, I know why I was to wait. Obedience to God brings about many blessings. Obedience is something that I continue to work on daily in my walk with Christ. A relationship with Christ leads to knowing Christ which leads to recognizing God's voice, which ultimately leads to obedience. Only God knows what is in store for us with this new referral. Maybe this adoption will work out this time, maybe it won't. I will not question God's work, even if I don't understand it. My only work is to continue to be faithful and hang on for the ride!!

Where did he come from?

I am talking about Manning, my five year old, robust, loving, stubborn, outspoken, opinionated five year old. I must say he does get a lot of his traits honestly ( I won't say from which side of the family however). He is just never ending with his points of view. He cracks me up every day, actually throughout the day.

With the many snowstorms that have battered us in the north-east, Manning and I have spent now, 8 days together 24/7. There have been times I have wanted to kill him over the past week, but i am sure he would tell you the same about me.

First off, I should start by reminding everyone that Manning is the baby of three boys. My oldest is month's away from turning 16, and the other is almost 13. From day one, this child has been coddled and spoiled, not by us, his loving parents, but by his older brothers. They would let him get away with anything, he could do no wrong in their eyes. They yelled at anyone for disciplining him, even the babysitters. Nobody and I mean nobody messed with "their baby". I can tell you now that this loving relationship has become not so loving since the child has grown and now has opinions and thoughts of his own. He is just not so cute to them anymore, in fact he is very annoying, or so they tell me.

Why the background, you ask? Because I blame those two elder son's for creating the little five year old monster.

Last night as my husband, Manning and myself were driving home from the mall and we all were talking. Mike and I in front and Manning in the back in his car seat (yes, he is almost six and still in a carseat, I am a worrying mother that also happens to be a nurse married to a paramedic)I was talking about how I needed to finish up the laundry when we returned home from spending money we didn't have. Although I did purchase the avia fitness rocker tennies. I wore them for an hour and my butt looks like so hot!!!! NOT!!!! Anyway, Manning decided to put his two cents in on this conversation that went a little something like this;

Manning; Mom you do all the housework all the time, you do everything while dad just sits on his butt

Me; Wow Manning, I didn't know you made observations like this. What kinds of things does mommy do at home?

Mike; smirk

Manning; You cook, clean, do the dishes, sweep, do the laundry.........

Me; Daddy helps with the laundry sometimes.

Manning; Uh! NOT very often!!!!

Me; So what kind of duties do you think we should give daddy around the house

Manning; Everything (overexaggerated and with dramatization with the hands) he can do all the work while you sit on your butt and watch!!!!!

Mike; Not smirking anymore, more of a OMG where did this kid come from look

Me; Wow that is a great idea. How long do I get to sit on my butt?

Manning; Til I am grown up and gone

Mike and I; hysterically laughing

This conversation sooooo made up for all the times I wanted to kill him the past 8 days. I told Mike, "this kid is soooooo on my team and not yours" He loves, loves his mommy. And to top the night off, the final conversation in bed went something like this (yes, he sleeps in bed with us, right smack dab in the middle)

Me; Manning do you want to go to my meeting with me tomorrow or stay here with your brothers

Manning; I want to go with you, I don't care how early I have to get up, I am not staying with them!!!!!

Me; OK go to sleep, we have to get up early

Manning; continuing to blab on

Mike; Manning, go to sleep I have to get up early for work

Manning; Dad, you just have to go to work and save people's lives, MOM AND I HAVE A VERY IMPORTANT MEETING TO GO TO!!!!!!!!!

Oh how I love him.

Our Crazy Life..... and the story continues

So much happening lately, I'm not even sure where to begin. I was supposed to be going on an all expense paid trip to South Korea for two weeks at the end of the semester through the school of nursing, however, I have changed my mind and have decided not to go. The Dean, a few students, another professor and I were to go and check out a college that we are doing exchange students with. We were going to look at their health care system and basically sight see. I have made myself sick worrying about leaving the kids and of course falling out of the sky. I have prayed about it all week and feel good about my decision not to go. We leave for the beach a week after I would have returned and my crashing and dying may have ruined the family's vacation!!!!!!

On the adoption homefront, we have decided since we have already paid our agency five thousand dollars, we should probably stay with them even though they are BIG LOSERS!!!!!! Mihiret is not going to be adoptable. I was mad, hurt, angry, and everything else for a couple of weeks and didn't think I even wanted to try again ever. Well now that I have gotten back to myself, we are very excited to announce that we have lost our minds and decided to add another.....BOY to the family, yes this means we will have a total of four boys, five if you count Mike in my house.

I've had a few people tell me recently that we could write a book about our adventures in adoption over the past five years, I agree, and actually I could probably write many books. One alone just on our three weeks in Zambia. I have always wanted to write a book actually, and that is what I am going to be working on this summer. Exciting things!!!!!!!!

Not Looking Good in the adoption world for us!!!

We have received yet some more disheartening news today. I spoke with our agency owner and asked straight up if he ever thought Mihiret would be paper ready and make it home. He told me she has no paperwork at all done on her in country. He said he couldn't say if it would happen within the next 1 or even the next few years. He said even though he thought her parents were both dead that they had to find a next of kin. They don't even have the death certs, nothing!!!!

He said we could get in the back of the line and wait on another referral, but we couldn't continue to wait on Mihret and also another referral. Well, I didn't tell him but I had already decided that if Mihret doesn't make it home that we are finished with adoption all together. So we have decided to wait 18 month's until the new I-171H renewal I just received is no longer active. If she isn't home by then, we are no longer pursuing adoption at all.

We have lost 35, now 40 thousand dollars in failed adoptions and it's not fair to the children I have at home to continue financially and emotionally. Most of this money was in loan form that we continue to pay on. Money that could have been put away for college for my boys.

I am heartbroken, nauseated, and feel quite numb right now. Please pray for our family for healing and please pray for Mihiret, who will continue to sit in an orphanage with no family to call her own. She knows no different as she has been there since around 2 months of age, but it just isn't fair to these children.